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Heather and Darren's Travels

Author: Heather Hamilton (Page 15 of 21)

Whitefish: Life is Better on a Bike

Darren suggested breaking up the journey from Glacier NP to Missoula, a college town in Montana, by staying at a mountain bike retreat. Located just outside Whitefish Montana, it serves as a bike rental shop, bike playground and campsite in one. I was bribed with “a bike ride to a brewery, and a camping spot to boot”. OK, I’ve done brewery bike rides before, how hard can it be.

It was actually a cool place to camp – individual spacious camp spots, complete with a bike rack. The finer details were bike-themed, re-using old bike parts in some ingenious way – a bike fork for a campfire poking stick, wheels for camping pitch numbers, pedals for toilet roll holders.

While we were preparing for our bike ride, some deer dropped by to keep us company. Meanwhile, a frenzied woodpecker was head-butting a nearby tree.

I liked the bike I was given. Nice big 29” tyres and even though it wasn’t full suspension, it felt nice and bouncy.

We started with the ‘fun’ on-property trails, which Darren said would be good practice for the ride to the brewery. This turned out to be a set of looped single track trails with banked curves, hazardous drops, and bridges made from single planks of wood. Essentially an obstacle course of steep bits and narrow bits. So of course that didn’t go so well. Darren tried to teach me some basics, but soon got frustrated with my lack of talent and ambition. Better to just bite the bullet and get on with the proper ride.

Having survived and subsequently recovered as I’m writing this, even I would admit it was kinda fun. But my god it was hard. It was all single track which is enough to freak you out by itself. I’m pretty sure I set a new max heart rate on the uphill sections, I could hear the blood pumping in my head with the combination of adrenaline, altitude and general unfit-ness. As for the downhill sections, well – I thought I was going to die. My lungs got to take a bit of a breather but not my heart, that was in my mouth. As for my arms, they took the brunt of it, gripping on to the handlebars as if my life depended on it (which it did).

By the time we got to Bonsai Brewing Project in downtown Whitefish, I was so in need of that beer. I think maybe tomorrow, I’ll do a hike instead!

Glacier National Park: In Search of Moose

St Mary campground in east Glacier NP was our home for 3 nights. With a name like Glacier, you expect the weather to be chilly, and it didn’t disappoint. Down to around freezing overnight. I shivered as we walked past a huddled figure sat shivering outside her tent, hunkered down in fleeces and a woolly hat, writing her journal. That could so be me! I officially declare my tent camping days over (at least cold weather tent camping). I wonder if the Basecamp is the single most best thing we’ve ever bought!

Darren braving the elements in a pre-sunrise walk

Nearby St Mary Lake made for a pleasant early morning stroll before we hit the serious hiking. An ideal wildlife spotting location you might think, not another soul around to scare off the animals and we were there at dawn, supposedly the most opportune time. At the very least, a nice morning wake up call, the scenery a prelude of what was still to come.

Nothing doing wildlife-wise but we resolved to go back at the other most opportune time… dusk. Near the lake, we’d spotted a swampy patch of shallow water, lily pads floating idly – totally looked like ideal moose territory. Pretty sure if I was a moose, I’d go there for an evening mooch around.

We were armed with only the most appropriate beer for the mission: Moose Drool, a tasty brown ale, courtesy of Blue Sky brewing. We crept up quietly, sneakily, not wanting to scare the moose away. And we were rewarded with… Ducks. And silence. And no moose. Seems it’s more of a duck hangout than a moose caboose.

Consoling ourselves that it was at least a cool, peaceful spot to enjoy a beer, we heard voices. People. Just a family with a young daughter returning to the car park. And then the kid began to sing. Bob Marley. At the top of her voice and without a care in the world. “Don’t Worry. ‘Bout a Thing. Cos Every Little Thing. Is Gonna Be Alright. (Be Alright).” Moose or no moose, I think she had it right.

Glacier National Park: In Search of Bears

Glacier National Park is known for a couple of things – 1. glaciers and 2. wildlife. As is the case globally, the glaciers are dwindling, but a shadow of their former selves. The wildlife however, is thriving. Grizzly bears (oh yes!), black bears (which if you didn’t know can be black, brown or blonde), moose, elk, mountain goats, wolverines (who knew), even wolves. Cool, let’s get out there and look for some bears!

We had done some research in advance, and our hike of choice was to Iceberg Lake in the Many Glacier area of the park. A good chance of seeing bears and icebergs in a lake seemed to tick both boxes. And then we found it was closed. What? Closed? Why? Because of bear activity. What? But we’ve come to see bears! Yes, as if to add insult to injury, the trail was not only closed, it was closed because of bears.

We were pointed in the direction of an alternative walk – the Swiftcurrent Valley, where there was supposedly a good chance of seeing wildlife. Unfortunately, so was everyone else so it wasn’t the quietest of hikes. Still, the scenery was impressive, especially around Bullhead Lake.

We kept our eyes peeled for bears but nada, nothing, zilch. Of course, they’re all playing around on the Iceberg Lake trail! Other hikers jingle jangled as they walked with their bear bells tinkling, sounding like a herd of reindeer. Yet others walked with cans of bear spray in their hands, ready to attack at any moment (or more likely spray themselves in the face). They needn’t have worried – any trail I’m walking on is virtually guaranteed to have no bears.

Back in the car park, there was a bit of a kerfuffle as a small crowd gathered around a spotting scope. We went to see what all the fuss was about – and high up on the mountainside (mere specks, but moving specks and visible through binoculars or the scope) was a grizzly mother and her two cubs. Lesson learned – if you want to spot bears, your best chance is in the car park.

Brown speck on the left is mama Grizzly. Blonde speck on the right is one of the cubs. 

Glacier National Park: Going to the Sun

Going to the Sun road is the number one must do for most visitors to Glacier National Park. It is the only road traversing the park from east to west (in fact, if you look at a map of Glacier, the vast majority is accessible only by hiking, with very few roads). Going to the Sun has an adventurous ring to it, that it’s not just about the destination but the journey too.

Having stopped for just a couple of photo opportunities along Going to the Sun road, it was still early when we arrived at Logan’s Pass. With sweeping views over the park, Logan’s Pass sits on the Continental Divide (something about rain falling on the east drains ultimately to the Atlantic whereas rain falling on the west drains to the Pacific).

Beyond here, the road was actually closed, due to the Howe Ridge fire that has been burning in West Glacier for about a month now.

It’s a relatively easy walk from Logan’s Pass to Hidden Lake overlook, mostly boardwalk and 500 feet of elevation gain. From here, we could see exactly why the west side of the park was closed, with heavy smoke from the fire lurking down in the valley.

Very few people venture past the overlook to actually drop down to the lake, which for us, made it all the more special. It was a pleasant surprise to see so many wildflowers in the sub-alpine meadows this late in the season, bursts of color with the mountains as a backdrop, very pretty.

We didn’t see too much wildlife (notably no bears), but we did see the back side of a fluffy mountain goat disappearing into the forest, and a cheeky marmot, his coat turning white for the winter, too busy fattening himself up to bother getting out of our way.

When we planned this trip, the guidebooks had pointed out that there was a sweet spot early to mid September after the crowds have gone home and before the snow comes and the campsites close. Hmm, judging by the number of people here, I would hazard a guess that we weren’t the only ones reading this advice in the guidebooks. If this was the sweet spot, I can’t imagine this place in the summer.

Still, the tourist zoo made for some good entertainment, watching cars drive round and round the full car park looking for a non-existent space while we re-fueled with a picnic lunch. They obviously weren’t on Darren’s schedule of getting up in the dark and away at dawn.

Nice spot for a picnic

A shorter hike in the afternoon along the Highline Trail continued the ooh and aah views. Totally agree that Going to the Sun road is a must do if you ever make it to Glacier NP. As is hiking more than 5 minutes from the car park. You lose half the people each mile you walk. Get out and do it! 

Road Tripping to Glacier

Other experiences of note en route to Glacier include a fly fishing lesson and subsequent fishing attempts (a slippery slope, see separate post), a hot springs, an evening out in Bozeman, and a State Park.

The hot springs was unfortunately not one of those natural middle of nowhere rock pools, this was a resort busy on a holiday weekend with families and divebombing kids – still, the hot water did the trick and we left feeling refreshed.

Bozeman was a convenient place to break the journey and who knew, they had a Walmart. As I may have mentioned before, camping at Walmart provides an otherwise accessible option for staying in town. You might have to hunker down with a few other campers, trucks, and weirdos, but beggars can’t be choosers. For us, it meant an easy walk to a nearby brewery, trendy kambucha hangout, distillery, and wood-fired pizza restaurant.

The challenge came the next day when Darren, all pumped up with his new fly fishing enthusiasm, suggested I find somewhere along the way to Glacier National Park where he could fish and I could run. Believe me, google has not yet mastered this art. (Hey Siri, where can you fish and run en route from point A to point B?) Neither have I to be honest, but between us, we got lucky.

On the map, I spotted a confluence of rivers at Three Forks in Montana, which surely looked hopeful for fishing. Turned out to be Missouri Headwaters State Park (Missouri? I don’t know too much about US geography but I know it’s a way from here). Apparently, Lewis and Clark, a pair of American explorers had beaten us here, way back in American history. They led the first expedition west by following the Missouri River to here in 1805. I guess they managed to find it without google too.

Fishing and running done, tick.

Oh and certainly worthy of note on the road… our first Basecamp in the wild. We saw it in the distance, squinting as the light reflected off the silver… is it a horse trailer, is it an airstream? By the time we realized it was truly our kin, lights flashing erratically, some random waving…. it was gone.

From Salt Lake to Henry’s Lake

Antelope Island State Park is renowned for having free-roaming bison. Eagerly scanning the surrounds on early morning spotting duty, I proclaimed ‘BISON!’ and pointed in the direction of the beach. Darren peered and raised a skeptical eyebrow. I zoomed in with the camera to confirm. Damn. Just a bison shaped rock.

Still, we did see plenty of bison wandering around.

We also got a decent hike in to Dooley’s Knob (who names these places!), with views out over the far-reaching opaque waters of Salt Lake in one direction and back down to the Basecamp in the other. And all this before breakfast.

Whilst the aim was to get some driving miles in to move us towards our more northern destinations, you have to break the journey somewhere. A brief stop in Idaho Falls allowed me to squeeze a little run in. Oh and a brief Idaho Falls brewery visit. The beer itself was un-memorable, but they had a rather nice sunny patio.

Darren had rather excelled himself with an overnight camping spot overlooking Henry’s Lake. After 300 miles and 6 hours on the road, not to mention a bit of a hairy drive the last few miles to the boondocking spot (we don’t need to go into that again, something along the lines of navigational challenges similar to yesterday), we were ready for a beer!

The wind was chilly but the evening light mellow, and not another soul around. I bagged myself prime position in the BC galley, taking in the million dollar views as I rustled up a chili con carne.

Part of the camping experience is enjoying the great outdoors. It’s sometimes difficult to remind yourselves of that when it’s so cozy inside the BC, and you have the panoramic windows to appreciate the view.

After dark, the earlier wind had dropped, and we stepped outdoors to check out the stars. I have neither the camera technology nor the patience to capture it, but the expansive night sky was awash with a multitude of stars. The brighter ones morphed into the more recognizable constellations, with a supporting cast of tiny pinpricks of light, negligible in isolation but together forming the backdrop to the Milky Way. Puts you in your place.

Just the Start

I like to think of this as Chapter 1. As in Day 1. Technically, Darren set off from home with the Basecamp 3 days before me, so we could start there. But as I wasn’t present, it’s kinda difficult for me to write about. Should that part ever be written (over to you Darren), it can be The Prologue.

This being the Friday of Labor Day weekend, the traffic was heavy around Salt Lake City as Darren picked me up from the airport. He thrust his phone at me, on which he’d already set the destination as the campsite he’d left the Basecamp at on nearby Antelope Island. Along came the first navigational challenge (some might say common sense challenge). There were a few choice comments from Darren that we seemed to be going on an odd route, to which I agreed, but I zoomed in on the phone map – looked reasonable to me. The roads got quieter as we reached a near deserted industrial estate and I had to agree it was unusually quiet for a bank holiday. It was about this point, we were told to head down a narrow dirt road, actually more of a track.

I got ‘a look’ from Darren. A look that said without even speaking ‘I made it a thousand miles on my own without getting lost. And now this’. Darren grabbed the phone and soon realized it was directing us not only on 4 wheel drive roads but also onto a causeway that didn’t exist. I breathed a sigh of relief that at least we weren’t towing the BC. Could be worse! Apparently, there’s only one causeway that leads to Antelope State Park and it’s all the way north. We were heading south. I’m not sure where Google Maps was getting its information from but it was totally fake news.

Suffice to say, we arrived at our camping spot a tad later than expected, but nevertheless, I was so happy to see the BC, and enthusiastically excited at being on holiday. What a cool spot!

An open site with a view over an expanse of grassland down to the Salt Lake (10x saltier than the sea). Mouth watering aromas of chicken on the bbq. Beer in hand. A warm evening, with an amazing sunset. And over two weeks still left to go on our trip 🙂

Cloudy With a Chance of Seals (Morro Bay 1 of 2)

We awoke to a clear blue sky and a beautiful sunrise. Well when I say we awoke, we had spent probably half the night awake. We pulled into the Shandon rest stop just off the 46, about 10 miles outside of Paso Robles around sunset. Although quiet when we first arrived, as we bedded down for the night in the Basecamp, we were vaguely aware of other traffic coming and going. And then there was the trafffic that stayed. Those huge articulated lorries with the noisy generators that thrummed all night long. In the morning, we realized we looked a tad out of place.

Don’t mind us tucked in the corner!

Recent temperatures in Santa Clarita have been a regular 100F+ for a couple of months now. So our jaunt up to Morro Bay promised a welcome respite from the relentless summer heat. From my point of view, I was looking forward to a few days by the coast with sun, sea and sand. But as we approached the coast, we saw it. The cloud. Like a dense curtain of grimy cotton wool, it lurked ominously.

Darren rolled his eyes as I reached for my phone to check the weather forecast. ‘Partly cloudy’ it said. As we continued towards the coast, we were caught up in the heavy rolling fog as the cloud and the sea air inevitably intertwined. And there was no ‘partly’ about it.

Still, first on the agenda was a swim in the estuary. As I peered through the mist to the murky water, I once again questioned why I was doing this. Darren went to check on any particular swimming restrictions and was told to be careful of the jellyfish. “Don’t worry though, they’re not the stinging kind” she reassured. Previously undecided, it was at this point Darren opted for paddle boarding rather than swimming. Something about being able to look out for me better up there than in the water. Hmmm…

Wetsuited up and shivering, I approached the water’s edge warily. No sign of jellyfish. OK, here goes. Oh but first, there’s a serious underground garden of reeds to fight your way through, complete with unidentified bird poo scum floating on top.

Once beyond the reeds, it was face first into the water, and after the initial shock of cold abated, the exhilaration that I was actually open water swimming took over. Caveat… still not a swimmer, still a lot of splashing going on, a lot of stopping going on, and still not averse to reverting to doggy paddle at any moment.

But what made this swim super special was the wildlife. Did I mention the otters? California sea otters, of which a good percentage of the endangered population just happen to live in Morro Bay. Uber cute, they float on their backs with their paws stuck out of the water. They also hold hands with one another while taking a nap, so as not to drift too far. And so up popped an otter, like right where I was swimming. To say I was in my element was an understatement!

On the way back, I was happy at managing about 200 yards without stopping, and paused to get my breath back, casually treading water as Darren glided smoothly past on his SUP. “Behind you!” he commented. The subconscious danger of jellyfish jumped to the forefront of my mind and I turned around with trepidation. Only to see an inquisitive seal, his head just a few yards from mine, wondering what on earth was all that splashing about? Talk about up close and personal! Realizing it was nothing to get excited about, he gave a sigh, sunk back under the water, and with a swish of his flippers, he was off.

Cloudy with a Chance of Seals (Morro Bay 2 of 2)

After a refreshing swim in the estuary, my little jog around Morro Bay was a lot of fun. This is a classic laid back California beach town, with the balance just about right between traditional commercial fishing and tourism. And I could hear the barking of the seals in the harbor over the music in my headphones. Meanwhile, Darren explored a bit further on his SUP.

The cloud theme continued for the weekend. Saturday afternoon brought a walk from the campsite by the beach (at least I think we were by the beach, we could hear the surf even if we could barely see the sea) to the nearby brewery.

Prime spot!

The brewery is called Three Stacks and a Rock. Which just about sums up Morro Bay, from a distance at least. The Three Stacks refers to the trio of smokestacks towering over the power plant, oddly situated right in the center of town. And the Rock is the iconic volcanic rock that stands nearly 600 feet high at the entrance to the harbor. That said, we had yet to see the top of the Rock on this trip. Makes you even wonder if there even was a top… (like the Magic Faraway Tree with a whole world of different lands swirling around).

At least Darren was happy: warm enough to sit outside and tuck into a steak cooked on the bbq, but cold enough to warrant having a campfire.

Sunday morning brought no more insight into whether Morro Rock did indeed have a top. After a leisurely breakfast in the Basecamp, we headed to nearby Montana de Oro State Park for a hike. Again the weather came into play – not much point in hiking up a hill/mountain into the cloud. As always, Darren had a Plan B. The Bluffs Trail.

The Bluffs Trail skirted the coast, meandering through pretty moorland, with dramatic rock stacks littering the ocean. I was mightily impressed with this section of the coast, so much so that we cut the walk short and I changed into my running gear instead. The air was heavy and humid, but the scenery just breathtaking as I ran from one rugged bay to the next.

As we headed back towards Morro Bay, a promising patch of blue sky appeared and by the time we reached the harbor, it was almost sunny. And so it was back out onto the water, this time in a rented double kayak, for another look at the seals, the sea lions and the adorable otters.

Aha… finally, we get to see the top of the Rock

Enjoying a paddle and checking out the otters

The view from the pub is actually quite similar to the view from the kayak!

Back at camp, we had a chilled out evening in our little home on wheels. Along came the blue sky we’d been waiting for all weekend, and we strolled along the water’s edge at the beach, with egrets, curlews and flocks of arctic terns for company.

Happy that the sun had made an appearance, revealing Morro Rock in all its glory, it seemed only right as the sun dipped low in the sky that we could see tomorrow’s cloud already gathering on the horizon. The fog would be back tomorrow for sure, but for now, we made the most of it as the sun set into the dark line of cloud above the ocean.

Road Tripping on the US395

The US 395 Highway is such an epic journey, that combination of mile upon mile of mountain panorama together with the excitement that all roads lead to Mammoth, gives this road sign a prime place on our showcase wall, jostling with all the brewery signs.

Friday

First stop after a Friday night pick up from work, was Alabama Hills (impossible to say without an affected US Deep South drawl). Contrary to my pronunciation, Alabama Hills is just past Lone Pine in the Sierra foothills, California. We arrived just as it was getting dark, but still managed to bag a prime boondocking spot (you really can’t go too far wrong here!) tucked into one of the many rock formations.

Saturday

No more mice incidents to report this time in Alabama Hills (the previous time we were here, we had a little visitor in the middle of the night). The next morning we continued our journey north to Convict Lake for a spot of competitive paddle-boarding vs trail running (see The Convict Lake ‘Top Gear’ Challenge). Then what better way to cool off than trying out the local public swimming pool. Far removed from the crowded claustrophobic indoor pool of years past (think kids screeching & hollering, dive-bombing & splashing, and grimy plasters floating past), this pool was in the glorious outdoors – no screaming kids and no plasters, just a serene mountain backdrop.

This has surely got to be one of the most picturesque swimming pools in California.

As we rocked up to our reserved spot in the Old Shady Rest campground in Mammoth, we were surprised that it seemed to be already occupied. I readied myself for a fight, how dare someone take our spot!?! Darren hastily reached for his phone to check the booking and swiftly realized we were actually booked in there for the following night. Ahem, ok, quiet exit, stage left.

Not a problem for the Basecamp, we had planned on boondocking for a night anyway (just not this night). We set our sights on the nearby area around Hot Creek Springs.

The thing about pulling a trailer is that you’re paranoid about turning down a narrow trail only to find that it’s a dead end, with no turning circle or means to get back out again. Luckily, a combination of prior research, google earth and sending me out to check any potential such offending trails did the trick, and we ended up in a perfect spot overlooking the steaming river below.

Sunday

An early start had us backtracking to Mammoth and heading up to the lakes above the town. Undeterred by his performance on the SUP yesterday, Darren was ready to take on a couple more lakes (Horseshoe Lake and Lake Mary). But before any paddle-boarding could be done, the damn thing needed pumping up. For some reason I’m still trying to come to terms with, we have a hand pump. (I’m trying to make Darren see sense and order one of those pumps you can plug into the car and let that do the hard work for you). Anyway, in the meantime, we’re stuck with the hand pump, and have come to some reluctant arrangement of my contributing 100 pumps to the proceedings. So no sneaking off for me to do my own thing – at least not until I’d done my duty.

98… 99… 100. Done!

I left Darren to his own devices on the paddle-board, and kitted up for a run. Four years earlier, we’d done a half marathon in Mammoth, which rolls gently downhill for the first 8 miles or so. Probably the prettiest race I’ve done, and I regretted not being able to stop for pictures along the way. This time, I didn’t have to run the full 13.1 miles and I could dilly dally to my heart’s content.

Lost in my own thoughts and the beauty of the scenery around me, I was jolted back to the present by a fisherman calling up to me from the bank below. “Did you see the bear?” I did a double-take, “Huh?” “The bear” he exclaimed “not just one but a mother and two cubs – just moments ago – they stole my fish! They must have gone right past you.” Man, it’s times like this I wish I were more observant. I was tempted to double back and try to find them, then thought better of it.

I was disappointed at missing such an awesome wildlife spotting opportunity, but fantastic scenery aside, there were two other great advantages to this run. 1 – Mammoth Brewing at the bottom of the hill. And 2 – a free shuttle bus to take me back up the hill : )

This time when we arrived at the Old Shady Rest campground, there was no one in our spot. Funny that. Out came the bikes for a mini brewery tour. Although Darren had other ideas and took the long way round (seemed a very long way round). Mammoth Brewing and Black Doubt Brewing done, it was back to the campsite for steak on the bar-b-q and a cozy campfire.

Monday

It was time to brave the cool clear waters of June Lake. The thing about this triathlon training lark is that you don’t just have to be able to swim, you have to be able to swim in open water. One of the drivers behind even contemplating attempting this was to feel out of my comfort zone. Well this is about as out of my comfort zone as it gets.

Even I had to admit that the water looked quite inviting – the sunlight was glinting off the surface and the water was so very clear you could see way all the way down. However, despite Darren’s earnest suggestions that it reminded him of the Caribbean, I was more skeptically reminded of the turquoise glacial waters of Lake Louise in Canada. Long story short, even wet-suited up, complete with booties and wetsuit hood, it took me a l—o—n—g time to get in the water.

Finally in, initial shock over as the water seeped into my wetsuit, and having taken the plunge to fully immerse my face, I started to swim. Slowly of course – I’m still very much a beginner, and don’t get too far without resorting to doggy paddle. But the exhilaration of seeing the mountain peaks every time I took a breath, combined with being able to see all around in the water – including spotting fish, just blew me away. Happy days!

De-wetsuited and dried off, next up was a bike ride. The so-called June Lake loop. 25 miles might not sound so far but that thin mountain air comes into play again, not to mention the steep terrain, the wind and the heat. The long slow crawl up the 395 nearly finished me off, don’t think I’ve ever been so happy to see the Basecamp.

The campsite in June Lake was right on the edge of town, entailing a pleasant lakeside walk to June Lake Brewing to round off the required checklist of eastern Sierras breweries.

Tuesday

July 4th falling on a Wednesday gave us a most welcome extra long weekend. Instead of having to head home, we continued north to Mono Lake for, you guessed it, another paddle-boarding session. After wearing myself out with my dutiful 100 pumps, I figured I’d done my exercise for the day, and opted for a leisurely walk by the shoreline.

It was like looking out onto a natural infinity pool stretching to the horizon, watching Darren navigate the strange tufa columns rising haphazardly from the opaque waters. According to Darren, it was like paddling on a different planet. One with water obviously.

Contemplating where to head to for the remainder of the day, the relentless heat got the better of us. After brunch, we pointed the Basecamp in the direction of Yosemite, and climbed up Tioga Pass to 10,000 feet to escape the blast furnace conditions we’d been experiencing. Even stopped in for a Mr Whippy (probably don’t call it that here but you know what I mean) at the sleepy town of Lee Vining along the way.

We got lucky with a gorgeous camping spot at Junction campground.

All that remained for our last night was to relax by the river with a beer. Out came the travel guidebooks, and maybe another beer or two. No point in dwelling on the return trip home when we could be planning Operation Next Road Trip!

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